Hey baby

This would be the last time I call you baby.

I’m opening my heart to you this time.

Im telling you what I have been hiding all from you this time.

Did you notice when I come drop by at your working place and talk to you,

I never had any eye contact with you?

Im afraid to look at you,

Im afraid to look into your eyes,

Im afraid to hear your voice,

Im afraid to see u smile and laugh,

Im afraid to see you again,

Im afraid to fall in love with you again..

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Do you know why I asked for a break on our “first date”?

Well more like a night market outing xD

the reasons were:

Well I was shy and im not good enough for you.

When you wanna hold my hand,

I was so shy as my frens were following

and i rejected your request although i myself wana hold ya hand

And btw I was totally in sweat, sweating like a pig,

You said you don mind but I want you to have the good side of me,

Not the bad side of me!

Well I asked for a break and gave some stupid excuse.

Like you said you actually predicted.

I didn’t want to tell you the truth

And I don feel like telling now also

But one of the reason was,

that time i really have no time to date as you know, and

I am looking down at myself, im not good enough for you

I dont deserved to have such a nice guy like you as my boy friend.

And I cant stand the way ppl look at us, one fat one thin. -.-

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You were so nice and so sweet,

To plan to have something nice and romantic for our sweet first date,

To cook for me. To watch movies wit me at your place :)

I was so happy :)))

But I guess all these wouldn’t get a chance to be fulfilled anymore

You were once loved me and tolerate so much with me

even if i do not have the time to meet you and stuff,

you were tolerating me :)

but I didn’t appreciated it at first.

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And I am nobody to change the way you are.

You have your own style and you are proud of it

I am just nobody to change the way you are,

Feeling in guilt, I actually asked for patch back last year,

we actually agreed on a second try,

and this time I actually accepted the way you are and the way I am,

But we actually broke up again on my birthday?

for some stupid reason again? and you said you cant seems to remember why?

That day I wanted to ask you over and introduce you to everyone.

But well since we broke up and I guess no need bah.

its so selfish of you to let me go even without trying our best to mantain our relationship

not even one single try >:(

and that time im so fed up of your promises-not-to-be-made->promises

but well everything had became a past now

there is no need for me or you to feel guilty over past

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To be honest I have already placed you as my 1st bf in my ♥ :)

The one before you I just kick him out frm the list xD

You should who I mentioned and I hope you still remember?

Owh nvm u STM one, don think you will remember

I noticed our relationships grew longer and better after we broke up

Growing to be better, nice and more open to each other xD

And we are ACTUALLY going out together :)

But we aren’t holding hand xD

Never once held hand, never once kissed you =P

Remember we made an agreement to do those thing on an well planned outing?

But we have light bulb following us remember?

Yes I still wan to do those things to replace back my “missing steps” in this past relationship LOL

we were supposed to perform all the steps for this year's valentine

but someone has got dates wit his friends

and totally forgotten about it until i told you last week -.-

LOL

Ok enough of joke, time to be serious.

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I am reluctant to let you go but I have to.

It took me one year plus to get over you?

But I guest it took you only few days/months to get over me?

Well time doesn’t matter as we wont be going back anymore.

I wana fulfill all my promise to you but I think im not qualified anymore right?

Still remember I mentioned I wana plant a tree and fly kite with you?

Well~ I don think we stand a chance to do so,

As we came to an agreement that the third time we tried to patch up

at the very end, You refused, so I said if this time we wont be patching back,

Then that’s the end of this and I wont be having this thoughts anymore

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Yes, I am still missing you,

Missing your voice, missing your smile,

But I don wanna miss you anymore,

I am scare to fall in love with you again

The feelings now aren’t same anymore like last time

And they wont be coming back anymore.

No matter how much I missing you,

We wont stand a chance to be like last time.

i dunno whether am i still liking you or not

these feelings im havin now is complicatin, i don even knw

why am i having these feelings -.-

you see im not ♥-ing you wert

is painful to keep mixed feelings inside my ♥, but nw

im feelin relief to tell it out here and asking you to read this

well you are the best memories in my heart and shall not be erased

i have decided to let you go completely huhu~♥

i would appreciate you comment back but as i know you wont ler

sai hei -.-

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